Wednesday, March 28, 2007
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8:48 AM
so last friday my mom, sister, cousin and i went to the casino. it wasnt the first time ive been there but it was the first time i actually used my own money to play and i lost 40 bucks. i was like thats lame but my mom won alot which was cool.
oh yea and i played basketball for the first time in months. it felt great i dont know what it is but when i play soccer i get this intense feeling of relief and its similar with basketball its just its not as intense but it did feel good.
im trying to get into school but i dont know how im gonna pay tuition since there are some certain factors to consider now and it starts on thursday. so yea i wont say whats going on cause its no ones business but its a new year and i want a new start. i want a better start i want to actually do what i need to so i can get to where i want to be.
one step at a time.
oh i did this and i think its absolutely cute.
this is in my bathroom
on top of my bathroom door. i ♥ it
theres a song i like its called promise by vanessa hudgens.
What you think about this?
I been holding it in now I'm letting it flow
What you think about this?
I'm gonna do my own thing yeah I'm flying solo so
Don't tell me how its gonna be
On my own
And the thing of it is
There's nothing round here that I'm gonna miss
Cause you're holding me down
I just wanna fly
There comes a time when I gotta say goodbye
To the life that you see me in
Here's where I begin
[Chorus]
And I promise myself
I ain't nobody's, I just wanna be free
And I promise myself
Even though it don't always come easy
Gonna learn from my pain
Never explain
Do it my way, that's what I say
Promise myself
I'm the only one who will believe me
There's a voice in my head
Telling me come on, come on, move on
There's a voice in my head
Telling me I know my right from wrong
They say what doesn't kill you can
Make you strong
Now I know what it means
You can try to bend but you ain't breakin my dreams
I'll be making mistakes
Comin up at a loss
I'll be tumbling down
But Like MC shake it off
I'll stay cool cause I know who's boss
Of me, myself, and I
[Chorus]
And I promise myself
I ain't nobody's, I just wanna be free
And I promise myself
Even though it don't always come easy
Gonna learn from my pain
Never explain
Do it my way, that's what I say
Promise myself
I'm the only one who will believe me
I'll keep movin even when the beat is gone (I will)
I'll keep doin what i got to do to carry on (I will)
So don't hold me down cause i'm gonna fly
and the time has come and I gotta say goodbye
To the life that you see me in
Here's where I begin
[Chorus X2]
And I promise myself
I ain't nobody's, I just wanna be free
And I promise myself
Even though it don't always come easy
Gonna learn from my pain
Never explain
Do it my way, that's what I say
Promise myself
I'm the only one who will believe me
and i also like bow wows outta my system.
[T-Pain]
Oh
[Bow Wow - speaking]
Damn
I just keep thinking about you (oh Baby)
I mean I wanna move on but I can't move on (ohhhh)
It's like you have some kind of hold on me and I don't know (oh ohh oh ohh)
But Imma go ahead and talk about it
Listen
[Verse 1]
I'm sitting looking out the window like damn
Tryna fix this situation that's at hand
You still running through my mind when I'm knowing that you shouldn't be,
Me all on yo mind and I'm knowing that it couldn't be
Cause you ain't call and I ain't even appalled
I still got a lot of pain I ain't dealt wit it all
I been running round with other chicks, I'm single and they loving it, I'm liking it but I just want the one that I was in love with.
That's not the end of it, I'm tryna let you go I can't,
Get a grip of it is what I'm tryna let you know.
You got a hold or some kind of control of me
I don't know what it is, but I gotta get you gone from me
I'm working at it and it ain't getting no better just tryna be like, yeah, forget it, whatever
Instead of staring out this glass looking at this bad weather, damn I gotta pull myself together
Cause...
[Chorus - T-Pain]
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard to get you outta my system.
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you outta my system.
[Verse 2]
I'm too attached, my heart won't let me fall back
I got it bad, that's what you can call that (ah)
When I see you in the streets, that's the worse for me
Used to love the little things you did, that's what works for me
It's too major, don't see you on my pager,
Know what you doing, where you at, or can I see you later? (Can I see you later?)
The fellas telling me 'just let her go Bow', believe me, I'm trying man, I just don't know how (Just don't know how)
I be in all the top spots, leaving with the hot shots, knowing they just want me cause I'm in the top spot
That's not poppin and my brain aint stopping, thinking
Who she with, or where she going, is she club hoppin?
I never had this kind of problem in my life, this is my first time dealing with this kind of fight
It's every night and every flight and every time you in my sight,
Damn this aint even right, cause...
[Chorus - T-Pain]
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you (yeaa)
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do (yeaaaa)
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system. (ohhh)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you outta my system.
[Hook - Bow Wow]
Is it wrong for me to feel this way, you been running through my mind all day
Can you feel me?
I been tryna get you off my mind, but I cant after all this time
That's what kills me
Is it wrong for me to feel this way, you been running through my mind all day
Can you feel me?
I been tryna get you off my mind, but I cant after all this time
And it kills me
[Chorus - T-Pain]
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system. (Hard to get you outtt)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
So hard to get you outta my system
[Bow Wow - speaking]
I remember everything that me and you talked about
Me and you had our whole lives planned out together (oh ohh oh ohh)
And if I could, I would, turn back the hands of time and correct all my mistakes that I ever did
But now I guess I gotta move on, right?
It's still hard and I still love you till this day
Peace
but the song for the current theme in my life is say goodbye by chris brown.
[INTRO]
Look we gotta talk
Dang I know, I know
But its just somethings I gotta get off my chest alright
Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so
[HOOK]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Boy it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, boy I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Though I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know
[HOOK]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Boy I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Boy how you not gonna see it?
[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Boy it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
Listen to your heart
Boy you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Boy you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh [4x]
Do you hear me crying?
[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Boy it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Boy it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
anyways moving on my ipod is a piece of crap. well its actually the battery thats a piece of crap. i want a new one hmm maybe when i get my credit card ill buy myself a new one. lol idk
thats all i got for now...
oh wait did you hear about kobes 50+ point games. its awesome uh huh it sure is. and ive seen a lot of articles that are actually positive about him which makes it even more better so holler...
haha
Brit