Tuesday, January 08, 2008
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1:44 AM
hey everyone! how was new years? mine was great i had a really good time and i guess you can say i started the new year with a bang. it was awesome.
i just want to address some things cause its been awhile since i did an update and i heard tons of stuff going on from so many different people.
first off yes what i said in my dec. 16th update is true. no one forced me into making this decision and i did it based on what i feel in my heart. so for everyone that said this was happening because i want the benefits or the money. i dont care for the benefits and if that was the case we would have gotten married before he enlisted so i would have received the benefits immediately after he went in. its much harder to receive them after enlistment. so dont step to me and say im getting married for benefits. as for the basic allowance for housing (BAH) it means nothing to me. it wouldnt even apply to us cause hell be in georgia and staying in the barracks while im up here in washington so try another lame attempt to make this a negative thing.
the second thing is i really dont know how some of you found this out. it kinda baffles me on how certain people knew about this. yes we did have a pregnancy scare. there were a few times we werent as careful as we should have been and i missed my time of the month for december. however i took a pregnancy test and it came out negative and im currently with tom at the moment. so it was just a scare. someone had asked whos baby it would be and i mean its kinda funny to ask but of course it would have been jrs.
third theres a few of you who know about the wedding but yet continue to flirt with me or make comments that really shouldnt be said at all. id appreciate it if you had the respect for me and jr and keep those comment to yourself. thanks!
the last thing that i want to say is its been 3 years. its nothing but the past. i really hoped that the longer time went on youd leave everything in the past. things didnt work out and if you had accepted it you wouldnt be in this situation. i know how often you talk crap about me and maybe its still anger or hurt or whatever you feel it is but it isnt healthy for you. i do wish you the best cause in the end you taught me so much and if things didnt go the way they did i wouldnt have grown as an individual and gotten to know who i am. i really feel that if you just let it go you will realize that letting go is easier than holding on. regardless of everything one day i will look you in the eyes and thank you for breaking my heart 3 years ago. it was one of the best things that happened to me. i just hope you can realize that it is probably one of the best things that happened to you too.
so on that note...
moving on...
jr. does leaves soon :( its his job so yea. thats where ill leave that lol.
i also weighed myself and i was happy with what i saw. i mean i thought itd be more than it was. all i need is just a tune up and ill be back to the weight i want.
house hunting sucks. its so dang wishy washy lol. i dont know but its like you see this house and you have a feeling for it then you see a different side of the house and you dont even feel it anymore. we looked at this house in lacey and i mean gosh i miss lacey. i miss it more than anyone knows lacey is just one of those places i felt happy. so we saw this house and its right in the area that is extremely growing and improving. the price was actually cheaper than it should have been for that area. the outside was amazing. it had huge front and back yards. it was fenced. it was within walking distance of best buy, safeway, walmart, starbucks, mcdonalds, etc. the down side to it was that the rooms were extremely small and i mean seriously small. 2 of the rooms looked like you could only put in a twin bed and and a dresser or small tv stand. when i walked in there was no fuzzy feeling. i feel like when you walk into a house you should just have this gut feeling whether its for you or not. i did have that feeling for this house in lakewood. it was perfect but it was auctioned off :( so the lacey house didnt work out. it sucks but it wasnt the house for us. so the hunting continues...
soccer is going alright. these past 2 games ive had ive focused primarily on defense cause i did hear from someone that i may be a great offensive player but my defensive skills arent up to par with some certain individuals so you know i have to prove to people that i am an all around player that can have all the glory and also clean up the dirty work. this coming weekend ill be playing in spokane. i just hope there isnt tons of snow cause im gonna freeze.
man....
i wish i had this car. the 2008 BMW M3
its estimated to be $54,000. dang i need to marry a rich man instead lol.
so until next time.
night folks!
Brit